As Rachel stuffed her last shirt into her duffel bag, she let out a deep sigh. She gazed around the attic. It was covered with paint and knickknacks, the ones she decided to leave behind, that it. Letting out a deep sigh, the ginger hoisted her bags over her shoulders and walked over to the door. She looked at her bed, her home for those past few summers, and felt some tears pinch her throat closed. She heavily sat down on the steps, and put her head in her hands. These last few weeks had been hard on her, she kept trying to make a decision but then going back on it. She hadn't had enough sleep for the past six days, and felt as if someone had cemented her head so that it was harder to think.>
Rachel sat there and let the tears flow for a while, watching them fall and shatter against the old wood of the staircase. There was no question that she'd miss everyone, of course she would, and it was killing her. She thought of all her friends who had helped her through everything, Scarlet, Luz, Piper. Jackson hadn't been there for what seemed like decades, and she didn't know how many times she'd sobbed over that. But they were all so dear to her, and life without them seemed unreal.
But she had to go. She knew in her heart that it was for the best, so she had to go. She didn't know where, but Rachel was leaving. Not for good, but for a while, because she knew it was in her best interests. And as she teetered down the stairs and the bright sunlight hit her tear-stained face, she knew it was for the best.
I haven't been active for a while now. All this roleplay has been giving me is stress, and I don't like that. I think that I deserve more that that. I think that we all need to get back on our feet, not all of us are active anymore, and I'm definitely a part of that. This was my first roleplay ever, and leaving it is hard, and leaving all of you is hard. I really love you guys, you're some of my closest friends in the world, and I am forever indebted to you for that. But lately it seems that I haven't been the best friend in that respect, and I am sorry for it. I feel like I'm the only mod that really tries to accomplish stuff anymore, and I can't carry the weight of getting bios done everywhere. That just isn't right, and I don't want to feel guilty for it.
I'm not saying I'm leaving forever, it is only a hiatus, but it is indefinite. I want to come back, I really do. But I'm coming back when I have more time to help all of us get back on our feet. I urge you to let this rp rest for a while because I think it might help.